I had a another one of those nightmares the other night. This one was very strange and seemed so real. The only part I remember is being chased and managing to get away. When I awoke, I was very startled and very terrified.
I was so terrified I couldn’t go back to sleep. I was even too scared to get up and to to the restroom. I thought to myself now this is ridiculous, I am a grown woman. That didn’t work, I was still scared.
I reminded myself to live in fear is to loose faith so I started to recite my usual prayer. This time it was not working, I could not calm down. I was too upset and scared.
Out of the blue the Lord’s prayer came to mind. I tried to say it and started mumbling to myself. “The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want”, I couldn’t remember what was next. Then I thought your kingdom come, thy will be done and it occurred to me that’s not right.
I felt embarrassed in front of God and I became very agitated and restless. I tried to find it in the bible app on my phone. I searched by scripture, I searched by phrase and I even searched by main word. I still was not able to find what I was looking for.
Jesus started to show me the prayer and I calmed down some. The idea came to me to google the prayer so I googled The Lord’s Prayer and as I read it I realized it was not what I was looking for.
I decided to go back to google to find what I was looking for. I wouldn’t be at peace until I could find the prayer I was seeking, I felt it had a special purpose and meaning that was relevant to my nightmare.
When I went back to google, this time I typed in The Lord is my Shepherd. Instantly I got the result I was looking for, The 23 Psalm. I felt relieved, excited and calm. As I read the scripture I couldn’t help but laugh, I mixed the two scriptures together. That’s what happens sometimes when you are out of touch with God and his word. I was determined not loose either scripture so of course I saved a screenshot of them in my phone.
I still felt embarrassed that I didn’t know either scripture and decided to find both of them in my bible. I book marked both scriptures so I could find them whenever I wanted to read them. God let me know even though he would prefer for me to know it, it was ok because I acknowledged my short coming and was willing to change it. Jesus let me know, “I got you”. He let me know he understood and that’s why he gave me the tool I needed to find the prayer and learn it.
“Discernment!” Now I realized the importance of the 23 Psalm instead of just reciting what I’ve been taught. It gave me a new understanding of THE POWER OF PRAYER.
Now if I feel fear or hurt or abandonment as well as if I feel joy, comfort or excitement I remind myself he’s always working for my good. With my nightmare, God showed me that no matter what you may be going through and how dark or scary it may look, have no fear. Also when it comes to standing on faith and believing that he will do what he said he would, have no fear.
So when that bill is due and you don’t have any money to see how it’s going to get paid, have no fear. When you get a bad report from the Dr and you don’t know how you are going to make it through, have no fear.
When I’m afraid thy rod and thy staff they comfort me, when I’m being talked about or betrayed, thy preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies, when I’m in need, my cup runneth over. This prayer has so many meanings and is so powerful to me. The Lord is my Shephard, I shall not want.
A BRAND NEW KIND OF ME