In going through spiritual rehabilitation Jesus has made me realize I need to face some realities about myself .
Iv’e had a very negative attitude for some time now and hadn’t realized how bad it was. I decided to watch the movie Black Panther recently one night for my movie night. I woke up in the middle of the night after watching the movie and the scene where Kilmonger(Michael Jordan)had on the mask kept running across my mind. Then suddenly Jesus said to me “Be careful what you use to hide your pain, it doesn’t become who you are”.
I started thinking Lord are you trying to tell me something or is this for someone else. If it’s for me Lord show me and if it’s for someone else, please show me when to share this. I started asking Jesus for discernment and making notes in my notebook. As I was making notes to refer back to Jesus showed me an attitude I had in a previous situation. “Thank you Jesus for discernment”.
Jesus was showing me that my attitude has been very UGLY like the mask that Kilmonger wore. “I know I don’t want to walk around looking like that mask“.
When you have been hurt or you have things going on in life that you don’t know how to deal with, you find ways to hide your pain. Be careful what you use to hide your pain, as it doesn’t become who you are. People often use alcohol to hide their pain, some people use meaning less sex, some people use drugs, I used a negative attitude that I let become who I WAS.
Don’t let what you use to hide your pain become who you are.
A BRAND NEW KIND OF ME
