It was a beautiful day, it wasn’t too hot. In fact it was just right for Denise. She loved days like this, she could ride with her windows down, the sunroof open and her music blasting. Of course she didn’t have anywhere in particular to go but she didn’t care. It was just being out enjoying the nice weather.
She decided she was going to stop at the gas station and get an energy drink, she wanted to feel as much energy as the day could bring. She went inside got her energy drink, an extra bottle of water and thanked the cashier. She was happy and enjoying the day. She remembered riding listening to music when she had her truck heading home, she smiled at the “Memories”.
Denise stopped dead in her tracks as she exited the store. She felt cold as she looked up towards her truck. She wasn’t prepared to see her ex standing there like he was waiting, watching for her. She tried to relax her shoulders and regain her composure. She took a deep breath and walked to her truck. She felt sad all of a sudden, she was filled with bad”memories”.
She smiled outside and screamed inside, she greeted him, hi Donald how are you. Hi Denise I’m great, how are you, nice to see you. She unlocked her door and reached for the handle. “Denise, how’s your family” he asked? She grimaced and turned her head in his direction still holding the door handle, “everyone is fine she remarked and opened her door”. “It’s really great seeing you and you look great”, he said. She smiled, “thank you” and she got in her truck, closing the door.
Denise watched him walk in the store and she sped out of the parking lot like she was trying out for the Indy 500. She was fighting back the hurt and anger while she was in front of him, she didn’t want him to think he could get to her. She hadn’t seen him in a while but the pain she felt was fresh and the “Memories” were just like it was yesterday.
She was enraged that he even had the audacity to speak to her let alone ask about her family. Denise started to pray as the “Memories” grew stronger and stronger. She felt she was losing control, she was no longer happy and couldn’t get back to the space she was in earlier. She started saying the 23 Psalm over and over again until she felt her self calm down.
“Be careful, don’t let your old Memories cloud your new ones”, she heard a voice say suddenly! Denise blinked her eyes in disbelief and looked into her rear view mirror. She knew she was alone in her vehicle and suddenly she heard it again, ” Be careful, don’t let your old Memories cloud your new ones”
At that moment Denise realized she had become so distracted and caught up in the bad “Memories” she was not only driving and not paying attention but she had completely forgotten where she was going and what she was doing. It was like her new “Memories had been forgotten already, the peace and the growth God had blessed her with were gone already.
Denise began to praise God and thank him for her new “Memories”, without she would be stuck with only the bad “Memories”. “She suddenly felt like Jesus was talking to her and reassuring she was fine and in the right place. She felt so many emotions at that moment; release, relief, breakthrough, discernment, joy and mercy.
Denise realized the old “Memories” were bringing back pain and along with that pain a dark and negative stormy presence in her. A place she did not want to go back to. She began to thank God for covering her and rehabilitating her. These “Memories” are the ones she wanted to remember and the ones she wanted to share to help someone else.
A Brand New Kind Of Me
I want to share with you, I had been going through a dark and stormy place recently and could not figure out why. I didn’t like where I was because it was clouding everything that I had worked to overcome/become. It was 2:18am one morning when God blessed me with discernment that I was holding on to old memories and letting them cloud my new memories. That was the reason I had begun to experience so much turmoil recently. I realize now why God kept telling me to let it all go and why I wasn’t going to be able to move forward if I didn’t. You use too much time and energy focusing on the negative in the past, you can see the positive in the present/future.
Don’t let your old memories cloud your new memories
A Brand New Kind Of Me