Cadesha thanks again girl for taking me to dinner, I really appreciate it. Really Alisha, it was the least I could do, besides I owe you for putting up with me. Seriously Alisha you have been a real friend when those I thought were my friends turned their backs on me.
Cadesha we have been friends to each other, I haven’t had many friends since I have been divorced. I haven’t really been very sociable to be honest. Cadesha looked at Alisha shocked, “really” Alisha? Yes, I was so hurt and I felt so betrayed by so many people I really didn’t want to have anything to do with anyone to be honest.
I just don’t talk about it much but during that time that’s when God showed me who was in control. Wow, I had no idea Alisha. I know you didn’t, that’s because a lot of the time I kept to myself which is what I needed to do while God was working on me, kind of like you do now.
I understand Cadesha said, it does seem like I’m going to go crazy in this apartment by myself but then I think about the chaos of another person in here with me and then I pray and God gives me that peace that is way beyond. Anyway, I’m getting all sensitive, I’ll let you go lady, thanks again for church, I’ll see you in the morning. Well alright but if you need to talk Cadesha just call me. Thanks Cadesha I will.
Cadesha got out of Alisha’s car and headed to her apartment, she felt the loneliness start to sink in as she turned the key to unlock the door. “Jesus please be with me, comfort me and keep me in everlasting peace”. Cadesha said a prayer as she went into her apartment, she didn’t want to let on just how lonely she really was.
She knew things would be hard but she also knew she couldn’t go backwards to laying up with just any kind of man, she wanted The Right Love. The Love that God had just for her, The Right Love that was to be hers forever. Cadesha was learning to let go and let God, when she tried to do things herself, it never seemed to turn out right.
She felt that she has been trusting in the wrong man all this time it was time she trust in the right man, God. She wanted to have the peace in her life without all of the drama and the extras, she wanted happiness and love and stability and of course The Right Love, she knew she had to trust God.
Cadesha settled down to do some reading of scriptures after she had showered, she couldn’t help but think about the chocolate man she saw at Alisha’s church. She smiled and breathed a long sigh, he sure is a handsome man, probably happy with some intelligent beautiful woman who’s a boss and all. She thought to herself, I could never have a man like that, I always seem to attract the worse in men.
That’s ok, she tried to lighten her on mood and got her head back into the bible so she wouldn’t be distracted. As Cadesha put her bible down and snuggled under her covers to go to sleep, she couldn’t help but think about that chocolate man again, he’s probably cuddled with his woman, oh lucky heifer. She scolded herself for thinking about this man again, that’s ok, God’s going to send me The Right Love.
A BRAND NEW KIND OF ME
(Have faith in your prayers)