Having a child was challenging, at times hard. She was still my baby and I spent all of my time with her before I went back to work. I was very concerned about leaving her with anyone, I wasn’t very trusting so I got my granny to keep her. I loved my baby, Chelsea B Lyles, with all my heart and I continued to make it my business to make sure she didn’t want for anything.
Being a mother and now working was even more challenging, I missed her when I was at work. I couldn’t wait until I got home to spend time with my baby girl. I eventually adjusted, I took her out every time I could so she could experience different things.
Within life, there are always changes, I started working a new job. I of course met a man and we started dating. He was definitely different from the type of man I would have found myself attracted to. We dated for a while and we had a pretty decent relationship. The life styles were very different, he had um habits let’s say that I wasn’t used to and didn’t really approve of. We still in spite of got along really great.
When I found out I was pregnant again, I didn’t know what I was going to do or how to tell him. I really didn’t think he wanted a child nor was he ready for one, heck I wasn’t ready for another one. When I told him, he was excited but for me it was a time where I had become disappointed in myself.
He was very involved with the pregnancy. He went to Dr appointments, we picked out the baby’s name together(Quintarius L Person), he even purchased a few maternity pieces. He was supportive and knew I was struggling at home. I was still living with my mother and brother for a while until she moved her boyfriend in. It became uncomfortable and very crowded. There were times I paid bills at my mom’s when no one else did, that was frustrating. I also felt that if I was grown with 2 kids, I needed to get my own place.
My 1st apartment was in Lincoln Courts projects. I had heard people talk about how easy it was and how the rent was based on income. I was very excited when I got approved and was able to move in. I made sure the kids had beds and comforter sets and had purchased a few dishes for us as well. I was blessed to get a few things to furnish our apartment when we moved in.
It wasn’t much but it was our home. We lived there for a while until the inevitable happened. There was a shooting while I was home one evening, thank God my kids were gone. My friend on the other hand hit the floor screaming like a little girl!(Lol) I couldn’t believe he was on the floor scared and whispering you better get down girl. I decided it was time to move of course and we were blessed to get an apartment in the same building my sister and her husband was living in.
The next couple of years I spent raising my children, my love life was not a priority. I didn’t have a very meaningful relationship for a while, I hadn’t met anyone worthy. My mom didn’t have a strange man around us when her and my dad divorced and I had always respected her for that. I was determined not to have a strange man around my kids. I definitely wasn’t about to have someone coming into our home and telling my kinds what they could and could not do.
My children were my responsibility so for me it was all about Chelsea and Quint, I couldn’t let anyone or anything get in the way of that.
A BRAND NEW KIND OF ME